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-Fencing is cool. Like usually the bouts are like 4-5 or 5-4 or whatever, most people are pretty close in talent because we're all beginners. and like nobody is taking it insanely seriously, like scorekeeping has been really lax and nobody really minds losing a bunch. unless you get completely slaughtered 5-0, that is just plain embarrassing. that only happened to me with somebody who actually fences, like wasn't in our class i don't think or is but has a bunch of experience. o.O I dunno, it's really hard to tell who people are because they have their helmets on. Speaking of helmets, picture this: it is summer, the room is sort of cool but not exactly cold. It is mandatory to wear sneakers and sweat pants. You wear these padded jackets that are long sleeved on your sword hand and cover most of your torso. Then you have to wear a fencing helmet. And a glove. Dude, hell is cold compared to doing a decent workout in those clothes. It's like 3.5 hours but it goes really fast.

-I had to leave fencing early today to go to the theater project. We're slowly starting to drag together the show that we're going to perform. We did some improv and 10 minute prep plays where we had to incorporate like a billion things, it was so hard. Ours was like this: I was a nerdy janitor who had a ghost companion and I was hopelessly in love with a ditzy prince. I go to cupid to get a love potion but she gives me a hate potion because she's actually in love with the prince so he hates me and falls in love with her. Then we realize that she got owned because he shows how stoopy he is. And I end up being in love with the ghost, which is sort of... questionable.

-It felt so weird doing improv without my old group! blagh! I've even known these people longer than them -.- but really, like the same trust level and chuminess really isn't there. like before we start, the SV part of the group like hangs out regularly and obviously not with me so it's sort of cliquey. Plus we didn't really learn all of the rules of improv so I just wanted to yell "relationship!" or like start looking at modern art in Guam but um nobody would get that. All in all, some people are cool, some people are just not as cool. But all of the old improv. peeps are so much cooler. I miss them! ;_; ;_; ;_; they were so epic. They are so epic, i just won't get to see some of them again. :::::::-([

-I drew people! (le gasp) It's been forever! I'm surprised I even know how anymore! Ive been working a lot more with collages and knottings and clay. So yeah, not exactly the most exquisite masterpieces I've ever conjured but they're dece. I'm in the middle of this one master idea but um I'll have to just jump the "I can't draw guys" obstacle. I don't know, I've drawn a few dece ones in my time, like Traeg and um Traeg and Damon and um Traeg. currently my guy looks like a doe-eyed scarecrow. not a pretty sight. It's either amazing how much better i've gotten with sketching people, or I just really really sucked before. I think both. I've been slowly modifying my form. Like newest acquisition is the elbows-to-wrists curve. mostly i have to appear a bimbo by staring at myself in a mirror and noticing what i'm sucking at when i'm drawing. it works. plus staring at actual people would be scary.

-anyway i miss my brother, he's at debate camp for two weeks. so when he goes to college... i'm going to try not to think about that. try really, really hard...

-I'm getting really annoyed about band and music. it seems like so many time I have to sacrifice the artistic integrity of a piece to do it the "proper way" which of course is proper, but i properly hate it. HATE IT. I can deal with "moderato" okay, i'll play at a moderate tempo but like "quarter note=225" ... good for the quarter note? no, i know that it's a metronome thing but hell if i'm going to use one. And then while i'm playing a piece I can't hear the song, or what i'm doing wrong because my teacher counting out every note. i mean It's not easy to keep it together with "1 and 2 and 3 and a 4 and a 5 6 7 and an 8 and a 9 e and a 10..." the whole time. 12/8 time is killing me. I've hard the official CD recording a billion times and I copy the rhythm I hear but apparently it isn't correct. KILLING ME. I couldn't care less about 6/8 time! Plus: Fussel Book= Fussy book. I mean it has FUSS in the name. This was ominous "It's the hardest the first time, then you just do the same thing over and over again for years." uh... I'm not sure what the worst part of that was, being hard the first time, or doing it over and over again. fussel book=scales. scales... eh. I know this crap is meant for me to get better and develop as an "intermediate musician" but i'm not that into some kinds of music and quite frankly, almost everything technical. I don't care about "oney and a twoy and clap with me, three e and a fourfive" or "music man in 6/8" or the Dflat scale or the Fussel book. blagh. My music lessons are not helping, my teacher is really nice and a great person, but I don't learn music like that.

wah whatever it's getting late. i'm sore but mostly like my right hand (sword hand). I'm probably going to have my theater project meeting like first thing in the morning after Breaking Dawn comes out! oh the humanity! lololol good night yall. (ps we should do a picnic thing. doesn't even have to be a picnic we should just all do somethang.)

PPS: Zo fjaict jemo e facexo weff.